this might need a trigger warning but it's really been heavy on my mind.

So it breaks my fricking heart to know that some people want kids but can't conceive like sometimes I literally feel guilty. It took a year of trying for both my daughter and son and I feel like I very well could have been in the same boat as those that can't have their own 😭 My uncle and my stepdad both want children but can't have them and also there's a security guard at the mall that my daughter just loves so much (she doesn't like any other strangers), he has such a good connection with her you'd think he's family and he said he loves kids and him and his wife are trying to conceive. Which is beautiful but I see a sadness in his eyes when she's playing with him 😔 and now that my belly is getting bigger I just try to avoid him because I can only imagine how that feels. I cry like twice a week thinking of those who want kids but can't conceive and have to see pregnant bellies and children every day. and it makes me even more thankful for my babies