I’m so grateful for my baby girl . . . But I’m so anxious & worried. I’m hardly getting rest because…

I’m so grateful for my baby girl . . . But I’m so anxious & worried. I’m hardly getting rest because it’s like I waiting for something bad to happen. She’s asleep & I feel like I should be too but I literally can’t. Every cramp, shortness of breath, dizzy spell, anything gives me anxiety. I fear hemorrhage, blood clot, anything. I don’t even walk much because standing makes my heart race out of fear. I just keep praying for ease. I kind of don’t wanna go home because at night I’ll be alone sometime.😔 I knew postpartum was gonna make me feel like this & I’m trying so hard to beat it.