Even though I get like, no sleep and Elliott is only 4 weeks old (not quite at his due date yet) I’m…

Even though I get like, no sleep and Elliott is only 4 weeks old (not quite at his due date yet) I’m already considering baby # 4. 😭

When I had Aarem I was convinced I’d be a one-and-done mom.

Then my husband and I decided to try for a baby when Aarem was 3, almost 4. It would be my husband’s first biological kiddo. We miscarried, and then got pregnant with Oliver a few months later.

After we had Oliver at 29 weeks, we weren’t sure if we would have more kids because I got so sick and having another baby so early would be tough. I got pregnant (totally unplanned) and miscarried and then went on birth control because I didn’t want to go through another loss.

When Oliver was 3 we decided to test our luck and go for another kiddo. Thankfully the pregnancy and delivery were MUCH better than my experience with Oliver (and even Aarem, oddly enough).

So now that I had a “good” delivery I have this sense of hope that I could have another good delivery, and maybe I could get even closer to term the next time around... and maybe I could get a girl next time!! (😂😭💝🤞🏼). It’s just weird to me... Elliott is basically a month old and I’m already thinking about another baby.