Aw dont be so hard on yourself! Im sure you're doing a great job. I am getting my tubes tied after my son is born. I always said Id leave it in God's hands and Id never get "fixed" but this is baby no. 3 and none were planned. They are all 5 years apart and we are finally having a boy so we just decided it was time. Its still sad though.

@poiznivy I won't be fetting my tubes tied but the bf will be getting snipped. I just know I don't want any more. Even the one I have now is a handful. I always wanted 2 kids because I have a brother and I couldn't imagine being an only child. I'm glad I can give her a sibiling but that's gonna be enough for me and my energy level lol