My life is so hard to enjoy at the moment. It's like when my son is at school I am miserable. I lost an amazing job Jan 2018 and this has been the hardest year of my life. I begin my CNA training tonight for my job and I am in nursing school during the day so I know my time is coming but y'all. I don't even have the $33 to get my workbooks today lol. I'm supposed to have this support system in place but they

Literally left me alone. The only person I have is my mom, she is my rock and I live with her right now because I couldn't find a job. I would get hired, it wouldn't work for whatever reason, I know now God had a plan for me. I'm walking in this life I know I have to live but sometimes I can't even crack a smile bc I'm used to taking care of myself and my son, not asking people for anything. I can't even keep my phone on and four weeks from now all of this will be irrelevant, however I just need some encouragement y'all. I will set the right example for my baby but Lord knows it's hard to fake a smile some days. It's been overwhelming and it's been tough. I still can't be mad because no one wanted to help me. I wasted a lot of time and now that I am serious, it's like I keep getting knocked back down. I've had car after car fall through and I know that it gets better, I just have never felt so low. It's a hard day.