My life is getting out of control. I literally feel like I have no control over my life. My husband is not the greatest person at all. The only thing that keeps me holding on to him are my beliefs in Jesus and that he must have a purpose for this marriage. Next, I have three kids that are wild. Very wild. Well at least my oldest two are, my youngest is 10 months and I have no clue what she will really be like yet. But my oldest two are from whatever planet that just doesn’t listen to sh*t! Then I just started a full time job, after working part time for 6 years and being broke, I finally decided to take a full time job since I got my tubes tied and figured I wasn’t going to have any more kids so why not start working full time? Wrong! I’m still broke because while I was working part time, my mom would watch my kids for me. Well she started to get burned out so I had to resort to day care for my oldest child. Then when I started working full time, I had to do enroll my second oldest child too. So all the extra money that I would be making is now actually going to day care. I had a lot of time to get sh*t done and now I have absolutely no time! The way my schedule is set up is that I have one week day off and one weekend day off. Well the job I had before was flexible so I would only work for days a week and take off Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. That way I could clean my house, run errands, cook, do laundry, doctors appointments... list goes on and f*cking on. Now I have to do all that sh*t but I don’t do all that cause I don’t have the f*cking time! So getting a full time job was basically for nothing! Then I decided to go back to school, well my husband is in school too. However, I chose to take two classes and my husband chose to take four. Now we have been doing this for like 2 years and all the while we were majoring in the same thing, BUSINESS! But now he has had a change of heart and changed his major to COMPUTER TECHNOLOGY! WTF! So ladies y’all already know that I had to help him with his school work and it was okay when we were doing the same thing. Business is book work but computers are hands on. Plus, we go to school online so the hands on part is already f*cked up. How could they even offer to do a major like that online? Any who, so on top of everything else that I have to do, he needs me to do his work too. Meanwhile, he’s not doing anything but laying on his butt, watching tv and on his phone probably texting god only knows who! On top of all this, we live in an apartment. Upstairs, on top of people! And I am so anxious and nervous about this because the last place we were in was upstairs too and the neighbors below us couldn’t stand us because my kids were making too much noise. And now my kids are still making too much noise but they are kids. I can’t just make them sit down all day and I can’t just let them go outside and play while I try to get something done in the house. So needless to say I need a house so I can do laundry at home instead of having to find time to go to a laundromat. And I can let the kids go play outside without the fear of them being outside with no supervision. If you made it to this part of my vent, then you can probably tell that I am in a terrible place in my life right now...