Is so hard knowing my due date was going to be on monday and my baby is still in nicu seeing other…

Is so hard knowing my due date was going to be on monday and my baby is still in nicu seeing other babies going home and not mine breaks my heart everytime i just feel more empty everytime i just don't know what to do or feel anymore i feel so mad at myself they are doing a methylation study on my baby now and i don't know what will happen after we get the results am starting to feel useless what i thought was going to be a few days or a week in nicu is turning into week 3.. i cry in the shower because i don't know what to do am stressing 24/7 i want everything back to normal people that know me ask where my baby is and i break down everytime