Trying to force something that isnt what you had pictured or what you grew up with only crashes and…

Trying to force something that isnt what you had pictured or what you grew up with only crashes and burns. I need to get ME back. Let influential things take control over me and that is not who i am. Truat i can be the meaneat and coldest person butni have to get pushed so far for that to even happen. But i am the nicest and kindest person also. Thats when people take advantage and walk on you.

1st Corinthians 15:33

Do not be deceived. Bad company corrupts good morals

I sometimes wonder if i cam go back because my skin is so thick right now. Im tired of being disrespected and letting things happen that im not ok with. No matter how hard i try to get back to me and live MY life the way i want and was. Theres someone in the background saying well "you do this" blah blah blah. When if they actually care to notice. I am not myself and when someone trys to bash me about it or even disrespect me as a parent. It doesnt go well. For EITHER person.