I'm trying so hard to be strong, but I just can't believe my BD is still trying to sugarcoat shit like he wants to be a family yet he want me to wait for him to get his mind right and change my attitude. Fuckin bullshit!! Dont ever let a man downplay you, this MF been knowing me ALL my life plus we have not 1 but 2 kids together now!! Must be nice to be able to just walk out on your responsibilities and live your life how you want while I'm here caring for them and trying to shake back from having HIS 1st DAUGHTER!! I'm strong, but I've been dealing with this bullshit for too long it's starting to get to me. The baby blues is real right now. I was actually trying to date before I even got pregnant and he sabotaged that. Now he's telling me no other man will be around his kids. Just wait til my heart is in the right place I WILL be dating again, there's a man out there for me that's willing to love me and my kids as his own fuck what he's talking about!!! Feeling stupid and low right now is an understatement😞