I’m feeling so down and emotional. Has anyone ever felt like they are worthless? I do because no one…

I’m feeling so down and emotional. Has anyone ever felt like they are worthless? I do because no one appreciates anything I do. I buy all this stuff for the house and I’m getting talked about behind my back about things like how I can’t help pay for the cable bill because I’m paying for a phone bill that I’m supposed to be getting help with every month but I don’t. I’m talking about my own family. What kind of bs is that. Getting talked about behind your back by your own family.