So I’ve spent the last week in the hospital. I was in so much the week prior and didn’t know what was really going on with my body. Turns out my kidneys are failing. I’ve always had high blood pressure and I haven’t had a full biopsy done my kidneys since my teens. The doctors seem so baffled that I never got it check when they were the ones who never took it serious enough in the first place.

So I had a biopsy done on Friday won’t know the results until Wednesday and the doctor thinks based on my blood work that the only thing left to do it dialysis. So that’s his plan is to start dialysis and get me on the waiting list for a transplant. But again we’re waiting for the results from the biopsy to see if there could be anyway I could do medication instead of dialysis.

Idk how to feel about all of it. I knew eventually it would come to this point since I was told I would need dialysis before I would turn 18 and was told I wouldn’t live past 25 and that I could never have children or become pregnant even though I was pregnant with my daughter last year but lost her at 17 weeks. I know miracles can happen and I’m hoping for the best. Just didn’t think it’d all happen so quickly.

So as of now my ttc journey is on hold and will be for a long while as far as I can tell. It saddens my heart but I need to get myself back to 100% of health if at all possible.