Omg !! I feel sooo sad /depressed/ mad ?

With my son i had a shower and i had so much for him !but the time was different! This pregnancy i don’t have anything for my daughter and didn’t have a shower because i literally don’t have friends and family got so distant !! 😭 my bd only has his sister and brother close and our financial situation is bad because of my pregnancy problems!! I feel like crying soo bad !! It sucks not being able to vent !