I had a d&c two days ago and I’m emotionally exhausted :( I have three amazing healthy boys but I can’t help but be sad. I want to try again but I am thinking maybe birth control is best until I get feeling better idk anymore 😭😭😭😭

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
i need a baby name i love 😭😭😭😭
I just hate the way I been feeling and the thoughts that have been running through my head 😭😭😭😭😭
Okay ladies so I can no longer drink Coffee or Soda🥤💔😔 I need a moment of silence 😭😭😭 I’m hurt lol