Today I cried in the bathroom at work for a half hour because one of the parents picking up asked me if the baby I was holding was mine. I hate this. I'm just going to go out and have sex with strangers every night until I get pregnant because apparently that's the real secret to having kids. Not planning and eating right and taking prenatals religiously. Girls who got pregnant the same time I started ttc are all having their babies, half the people at work are pregnant or just had a baby, and now my coworker who has kids my age just found out that she is pregnant. I literally can't handle my job anymore because every baby I hold, every diaper I change, every booger that gets wiped on my shirt is just another reminder that my body is shit and I'm probably never going to get to have a baby. I'm so tired.