I've been with my husband for over 19 years. It was good the first few years. And then things just started going down hill. I thought if I just stayed and kept up hope that he would change then things would get better. Maybe I deserve the name calling, the constant put downs, the shame of feeling like I've failed because I'm just not good enough or worthy of respect and real love. Ive hit my breaking point from it all. I just want to breathe again without feeling like I'm nothing. Or being worried about making him upset or angry. Putting him before myself. I can't live like this anymore. I am taking a break from my marriage. Im checking out of it. I need space to focus on myself and my kids. I need to breathe again. Can anyone relate to my situation or know of any loved ones who have been through anything similar. I would really appreciate some words of encouragement right now.