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I knew this was going to happen. The fatty arms, the stretch Mark's, the big legs, (I dont mind the big butt so much…

I knew this was going to happen. The fatty arms, the stretch Mark's, the big legs, (I dont mind the big butt so much :P)... my friends that had babies growing up I always idolized at how amazing it was that they carried a human being and gave birth... and SURVIVED lol. I always though it was so amazing and would call them "Mom Warriors". Now it's insane to me that I'm about to be one too! My husband and I prayed so hard for this baby girl. Before her we had 2 miscarriages, 1 at 6 weeks and 1 at 12 (had to have a D&C for 12 week baby) and it was so extreamly traumatizing for us both. It's still hard for me to think about to this day. But we are so beyond blessed that God has given us a baby girl (which I had also specifically prayed for, I've always wanted a mini me and a daughter to raise the right way since my mom was a huge screw-up for me). Just about 3 more weeks until I get to meet my princess Isabella Rose ❤ as much as I love and almost cry with happieness when she kicks me and I feel her little legs and arms, I'm excited that I'm almost to the end. Even though times were hard in the begining, God has really taken care of my family and I ❤ And I will love these crazy stretch Mark's for the rest of my life now, knowing it was all to make this little angel growing inside me 🤗

Sorry for the long post... just really excited for this new chapter in my life!

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my…

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday…

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

Birth Plan Rant I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have…

Birth Plan Rant I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?

I really really hate the fact that I got stretch marks on my boobs. And it kinda bothers me when mommas tell me they are…

I really really hate the fact that I got stretch marks on my boobs. And it kinda bothers me when mommas tell me they are something to be proud of because it's my baby tattoos or my proof I was growing a miracle...I'm pretty sure once my son is in this world with me HE will be the proof I grew a miracle inside me. I know they try to make me feel better about it but there really is nothing beautiful about stretch marks! No matter how you put it.