So the girl who found out she was pregnant in the middle of my very first two week wait just had her baby. Normally idc about other people having babies when I'm having trouble doing it myself... I never hold it against someone, or get bitter and resentful. At the end of the day, I'm happy for them. But idk, I guess because literally it could gave been me? It's so hard to not get jealous. Like, knowing what I know now, there's nothing I could have done because I likely had at least the beginnings of PCOS then, so even in perfect conditions i don't think i would have conceived, but I can't help the dumb hind brain that is upset over this. We could have had our babies on the exact same day but instead she has her baby and me, I've got all these fucking opks, lol.

Next month I've decided to Hail Mary it and just see what happens, so I'm getting my last 2 samples and inseminating twice during ovulation. This way, if I still dont get pregnant, at least now I know, and I can take the summer and just not stress over it until I have to money to order new samples (which will have to be from a different donor because my guy is all out and no longer donating...).