Not many people know the backstory of what all has went on with me and my youngest daughters father but all bad. We split in November, he cheated on me, got another girl pregnant. He’s put hands on me, had me arrested for defending myself, busted my car window.. etc I won’t go into details.. I had our daughter in January.. he doesn’t put effort in to see her or ask about her. Hasn’t met her yet. She’s two months old.

I saw him today for the first time since November when we split. I have a lot of sleepless nights because of him and my awful thoughts. I was minding my own business and heard someone shout my name and my heart sunk when I turned around and saw him. I immediately started panicking. He simply said, “how’s Remi?” our daughter.. I said “she’s fine” and started minding my own business. He just followed me around for about five minutes without speaking a word and then disappeared. Never even said anything else besides “how’s Remi” I saw him come back into the store when i was checking out and I ran my ass outta there. Luckily I had left both my kids at my grandmas house while I ran to the store so neither was with me.

I’m proud of myself for not acting a fool because I wanted to deep down. I wanted to scream at him and ask him why I wasn’t good enough. Why my daughter isn’t good enough. Why he did all the awful things to me he did. But I didn’t. I’m also glad to look at him and feel nothing anymore. He really broke me and I had been terrified thinking about the day I’d see him again.