This time around I don't feel the pull of sadness or looming depressing thoughts after birth that I…

This time around I don't feel the pull of sadness or looming depressing thoughts after birth that I had my first pregnancy. Maybe I can thank the c-section because I don't cry every time I use the bathroom or feel totally destroyed by a 3rd degree tear like before. Maybe its that I am better prepared and supported by my partner this time around instead of living with my in-laws with a cheating husband. Maybe a lot of things, but the only thing that does make me feel sad is not being pregnant anymore. I truly loved every moment of it and the c-section happened so fast the night I went into labor I didn't really get to say goodbye to pregnancy. And knowing this is my last baby and was my last pregnancy that thought is the only thing that makes me tear up right now, where as the past few weeks it was everything even tv commercials. But my baby girl is perfect, I am healing great and today I am going to drive somewhere just us two for the first time, to my lactation appointment. So hopefully I get this breast feeding thing figured out so that stress is gone and its smooth balanced happy brain from here on out!