So the doctors decided that since Nia has been intensely trying to suck on any and everything that…

So the doctors decided that since Nia has been intensely trying to suck on any and everything that maybe the next time I go to visit we maybe able to put her to breast after I pump. Normally they start doing this about 34 wks . But in the meantime the nurse may try giving her a bottle with a little bit of milk just to see what she does. I noticed the last couple of times that I've done skin to skin with her that she was rooting and trying to suck on me. I should be happy because she's making such great progress but I can't be because my anxiety is such a negative bitch that just keeps sucking the joy out of any good news I get.