I honestly can not believe he just cussed me out while I was on the phone. He didnt even know who I…

I honestly can not believe he just cussed me out while I was on the phone. He didnt even know who I was on the phone with!! But it was my mom. And she heard him loud and clear. She stopped talking like she was about to say wtf! But I started talking like it wasn't anything and she didn't say anything..now he just fucked the whole night up. He does this shit cause he knows I'll get over it cause I dont have any other choice. I cant leave, I dont have the means and the only place I could go is crazy right now. So he knows i have no options. And he uses that. He talks to me like I'm nothing. But then turns around and says he loves me. But the crazy thing is...I love him. I just want him to love me better.