Possible Trigger Warning!

Today was so stressful. Went to my obgyn appointment and everything was good until the assistant couldn't find a heartbeat. she said the o.b will try again when she comes in. I was like okay maybe she wasn't checking the right place?. The o.b comes in and tries. So She couldn't find it so she ordered a ultrasound. By this time i was dying inside. I went outside and told my fiancé that i had bad news. I told him and i got in the car and broke down trying to fight back the tears because my other two kids was in the car. We went to get a friend so he could watch the kids while we get the ultrasound done. As soon as he saw me he asked 'whats wrong.' I couldn't get a word out before i broke down crying. After he got ready We went to place that did my first trimester ultrasound. They refused to do them. The lady at the front desk was begging another lady that i couldn't see to just do the ultrasound but the other lady refused. They finally told me to go to the hospital. We got to the hospital. We went to the emergency room they didn't wont to see me and told me to go to the outpatient area. We went there. we waited for about 30 mins or longer until they called my o.b. The o.b office called less than a min after they got off the phone with the outpatient area and told me to go back to the emergency room and if they didn't see me tell them i was bleeding so they have to. We went back to the emergency room and they finally registered me in. I waited for another hour before being called back. They finally did a ultrasound and said my baby is fine. It took six hours just to be told that my baby is okay and i had a small uti. In those six hours i thought my baby had died. ai broke down multiple times. I tried to hold back tears. The relief i got when they told me my baby is okay was unbelievable. It had me thinking about the people that don't get so lucky and how they felt. I cant imagine how it would feel to feel like that for days, weeks, months, years. I am so sorry for anyone that went through it and didn't get so lucky. My heart breaks for you.