Ugh I'm having some emotions today. Mostly thinking about how i was a single mom for most of my…

Ugh I'm having some emotions today. Mostly thinking about how i was a single mom for most of my first sons life. I was inexperienced, young, selfish and naive I devoted my life to my raising my son but still could've put him first more and cherished his time being small more. Now he's 14 and I'm pregnant with baby number two and i almost can't enjoy my pregnancy or get excited about getting to know my second son because i feel so guilty for my first son. I find myself feeling so bad that I cry over it. I know some is hormones but mostly i wish i would've been a better mom while i could. My son is a great young man and he deserves better than what he got. #myfirstpost