My baby girl and I Went out to the middle of freaking no where to visit our family.

Anaiya got to see her daddy and we all spent the day playing in the sun and dirt 💜

I just wish her dad would step up and be a responsible father. I’d follow this man to hell and back again but for my daughters sake I can’t do that and I have to separate myself for long periods of time from him because he lives so far from us... he says to me he is only willing to be financially supportive (like simply helping with food/formula, wipes and diapers is all I ask) /that the only way he will help is if I / we come rough it with him out there...

uh no... no one needs to do that with a baby now a days... and to move in (technically it’d be moving out(side)with some one that I don’t even know if he’d keep his word on getting what we’d need... I say if he wants to be permanently apart of her life and really wants a relationship with me he needs to start showing some help despite our separate living. He’s on his own and better figure out himself soon cause I ain’t waiting around for ever for a m’f to step up and be the man I know he can be. I’ve Been a single mom since I had her and I got this! She is almost 3 months and I’ve been doing good, at least I hope I am. I have a happy healthy smart daughter! Her daddy may love her but he isn’t going to get a chance to live with either of us at this rate... Help me understand why I love him even still... *sigh*

Life is too short and I just want my little Ohana and unconditional infinite love...

(Crazy short story he had a son years before me and his son was murdered at 2 years old by his baby mommas boyfriend, well so happens Anaiya was 2 hours 44 minuets shy of being born on the same day of his sons birthday. But all of a sudden after 15 years he meets me and was given another chance at being a dad again and he is being like this... letting precious time slip away)

I apologize for my rant ✌🏻