Ugh oliver randomly switched his sleeping Schedule I had him on. I know I need to try and keep him…

Ugh oliver randomly switched his sleeping Schedule I had him on. I know I need to try and keep him awake during the day but I didn't get sleep for two days trying to do it. So I gave in today. I slept. And I mean really good. I feel bad but i was so tired I felt like I wouldn't be able to really watch over oliver tonight. I know ryder is working so much to help us but it feels like I do this alone. He works so much overtime comes home tired and falls asleep. I feel like a terrible parent if I just hand him off to my parents to watch him while I sleep. They keep telling me to. I just feel weird without oliver by my side. I feel like I need to watch him constantly.