My husband of 3yrs, but we have been together 7yrs. Every time I try an tell him something that I…

My husband of 3yrs, but we have been together 7yrs. Every time I try an tell him something that I would like to do. He always saying what about him...who gone help him...somebody gotta be here to take care of the kids!? So I always say ok maybe I shouldn’t do it. I’m getting tired of trying to rearrange my dreams an ideas to comfort him. Like when we at first only had one kid I said well I wna join the Air Force. Mind you this is before marriage, he said no I don’t want you gone that long for boot camp and why would u wna b away from her that long?! So I said ok maybe he’s js scared to be left alone wit our first child. Then a couple years go by an I say ok what about a family YouTube? I don’t wna do YouTube with you. Ok understandable not everyone wants to be on YouTube. Then I said ok well I wna travel an do more then BOOM💥 I’m pregnant with baby2. So I go back an get my ged to go to college. Then BOOM BOOM💥💥BABY3. At this point I’m on college with 3 kids an a husband doing a double major. He doesn’t help me at all ESPECIALLY not with school. Then had the nerve to say that I don’t try at school, I’m lazy I don’t do shyt, an I need to do more🤨. So recently I asked would he be ok if I joined the navy instead he said NO. Of course I asked why not what’s wrong with it. He responds who gone watch the kids while I work. So I said school and daycare, or y’all could travel with me. We could see the world as a family.Him no I dnt wna do that with my life. Ok understandable so why can’t I js b the one to go??? I just feel like empty at this point. Sometimes he js makes me feel worthless an doesn’t even kno it. He talks down on me so much. The worst part is he doesn’t even notice how it makes me feel. At times he does itvimfrpnt of people an don’t even realize it🤦🏽‍♀️. I DONT KKOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE IM LOST‼️🚨‼️🚨‼️🚨‼️🚨‼️