Upped my depression meds right before and after delivery. It was expected but still hard to handle. Felt like a terrible mother and wife. Intrusive thoughts hit worse with time.

I actually didn’t get medication until 18 months pp because I didn’t know what was going on. I’ve always had anxiety and OCD but it spiraled out of control, I thought I was a failure as a mother, cried nearly every day, had extremely disturbing thoughts and honestly I was paranoid 24/7. Just a simple dose of lexapro and I’m genuinely happy again. I also see a cognitive behavioral therapist for OCD.

Anger. Real short fuse. Noises really set me off. I just want to scream. Feeling like I’m not doing a good enough job as a mom. Feeling like my family deserves someone better.

I’m so sorry 😔 it just sucks. Have you gone to the doctor for it?