Well my plans have fallen through. I must say there are few things worse in life than a fickle person. I was going to say friend but as I don't consider the person anything more than an acquaintance I say person. I am in college full time but after making the Dean's List last year I am failing all 4 of my classes this year because I have been unable to do any work at all since the beginning of last month. my prof's are willing to work with me but I have had NOONE to come over and watch the girls while I do my work and got behind because we were all sick, the baby was in hospital overnight, both girls on breathing treatments which took hours out of the day and so on. So I let my A's slide. Needless to say I am now failing because eI haven't turned anything in. So I asked this women I have known for years if I could pay her $30 to come spend the day with and watch my girls at my house with me here and then if they really needed something I could help, but otherwise focus and pull off a miracle and get my work done. Well, she texts me this morning saying her son's teacher called yesterday (so within a short time of us talking and agreeing she could/would come over) and she now has a conference at 11am today. I responded that I understood but hat I don't find it very nice that she didn't let me know sooner. Ugh. So sad.

@xryztalroze, I’m so sorry! I have attempted college twice and it hasn’t gone well. But you had it under wraps! Do you not have any family near by? I have family all around but none of them watch my kids 😞 I wish there was some way to help.

@blessedbembc I only have my girls and d their father. We have noone. There are a few old church family but due to age and illness they can't help though they would love to.

@blessedbembc How long have you been married/together? How old? Have you've problems like this for long or is this new? I'm so sorry!

@xryztalroze, well we’ve been together 4 years as of 09/18. He’s 32 I’m 29. He’s a narcissist and I’ve accepted it so it’s really on me for putting up with it all. Doesn’t keep me from being sad or bitching about it 😂

@blessedbembc : Well I hope talking about all of this has helped. Up and running this morning with a busy day ahead. I hope you have a great day!!! It's going to be a crazy day but I'll survive and so will you!

@xryztalroze, honestly, I don’t think he’s ever physically cheated, I have caught him in the past having inappropriate conversations with other women but it’s never gone farther than that I don’t think.

@blessedbembc : Outside influence can come from other sources than just cheating. Of course cheating can come in many forms. I really hope it is nothing and that you are worrying yourself for nothing. It's a common issue during pregnancy for the man to have issue with intimacy. It happens. Praying it's nothing and after baby comes and you're able that things will resume at a normal pace for you.

@xryztalroze, I hope so thanks

@xryztalroze, he’s not overweight or out of shape, he does work 8-10 hour days but he’s a truck driver so it’s not physically rough on him, I’m more fond of positions where he doesn’t have to do that... if you know what I mean 😂. Our kids have a sleep schedule and are in bed by 730pm so that’s not really an issue. Trust me I’ve considered all options. Even asked if it’s the stress. But all of this “on strike no sex” started 5 months ago. No one watches our kids like we have no one to watch our kids so we never go anywhere without them... so being alone for an evening isn’t an option.

@blessedbembc : I'm out. The only other idea I have is to initiate intimacy a couple of times and see what happens.

@xryztalroze, lol I’m trying so hard

Well it sucks

@blessedbembc : I know. I'm so sorry! Have you tried talking to him about it? I mean really talked about it? Asked for an explanation to his comments?

If so this phase has lasted 3 years and 9 months 😞

@blessedbembc, that is weird. Maybe sit down and have a lengthy conversation. Tell him no judgement but you need to know what’s going on

He can get aroused. No problem there. And mater of fact he’s getting cut (his choice not mine) on Friday. But he’s been saying this for the past 5 months just about. So I don’t think it has anything to do with “the procedure” . I mean we had sex about 20 times a year after my son was born (before that it was almost daily), and he has said it (sex) was more of a chore or “more work” than it was worth. But these past 5 months it’s been nothing NOTHING . Like not even kissing or a butt spank here and there.