Well it's official I'm doing this alone. I'm so upset I can't even breathe. Trying to calm down

I’ve posted about my defiant toddler many times before but I’m really at a loss now. She deliberately disobeys. Like, she knows what “no” means and if she’s doing something she knows she’s not supposed to I can ask “do you want to go in timeout?” And she’ll answer “no” and SOMETIMES stop.. I can’t take her anywhere cause she refuses to listen. She runs wild, screams, throws tantrums etc. At home she’s just as bad and absolutely nothing I do or say helps. Timeout doesn’t work, hand poppings don’t...

So idk if I’m an asshole for thinking this but a girl I used to go to school with is having her 3rd kid and she’s planning a baby shower and she had one with her other two. I feel like a baby shower is something you do with ur first pregnancy. I live far from my family so I didn’t have one but i did have a baby registry and I’m not even doing that with this pregnancy. Idk I just feel like 3 baby showers is a lot! Especially when she gets things handed to her. Idk maybe I’m an ass for thinking that

**BIRTH STORY** March 24th 1:45am. (Me & my 10yr old home sleep) got up to use the bathroom & Had my bloody show. So I text my bf who works in L.A (2 hours away/off at 330am) saying keep phone on loud she'll be here within 24 hours. 2:30am felt a slight uncomfortable pressure starting.Text my bf saying pressure is starting I'll probably be calling early am. 3:30am mild contractions starting 12 min apart. Text bf saying head down they've started. 4:10am..7 min apart starting to hurt. Crawl on fl...

Yay for migraines I have them almost everyday, sometimes with nose bleeds sometimes not. Today my nose bleed was so bad it was pouring out of my nose and I couldn’t breathe and was choking on the blood going down my throat. This is after it calmed down.🙃