Well it's official I'm doing this alone. I'm so upset I can't even breathe. Trying to calm down
I’ve posted about my defiant toddler many times before but I’m really at a loss now. She deliberately disobeys. Like, she knows what “no” means and if she’s doing something she knows she’s not supposed to I can ask “do you want to go in timeout?” And she’ll answer “no” and SOMETIMES stop.. I can’t take her anywhere cause she refuses to listen. She runs wild, screams, throws tantrums etc. At home she’s just as bad and absolutely nothing I do or say helps. Timeout doesn’t work, hand poppings don’t work, a pop on the butt doesn’t work, I’ve tried getting down to her level and calmly explaining things or trying to make sure she knows that I understand her emotions and things like that but I’m not even kidding when I say nothing works with her. I’m constantly telling her no and even though she knows she’s going to get into trouble she will do it anyways and then cream this blood curdling scream when she does get in trouble. I’ve raided Pinterest for days, write everything down, tried everything I found... idk what else to do. Everyone keeps telling me it’s “terrible twos” or “she’s just strong willed” or that it’s normal for her age and all of that might be true but there’s gotta be some kind of something that will help me teach her to listen to me and such.
So idk if I’m an asshole for thinking this but a girl I used to go to school with is having her 3rd kid and she’s planning a baby shower and she had one with her other two. I feel like a baby shower is something you do with ur first pregnancy. I live far from my family so I didn’t have one but i did have a baby registry and I’m not even doing that with this pregnancy. Idk I just feel like 3 baby showers is a lot! Especially when she gets things handed to her. Idk maybe I’m an ass for thinking that
**BIRTH STORY** March 24th 1:45am. (Me & my 10yr old home sleep) got up to use the bathroom & Had my bloody show. So I text my bf who works in L.A (2 hours away/off at 330am) saying keep phone on loud she'll be here within 24 hours. 2:30am felt a slight uncomfortable pressure starting.Text my bf saying pressure is starting I'll probably be calling early am. 3:30am mild contractions starting 12 min apart. Text bf saying head down they've started. 4:10am..7 min apart starting to hurt. Crawl on floor to help (no help)...get in bath (no help). Get out..in pain. Screaming laying on bed and banging on wall...daughter wakes up freaking out. I say baby is coming. She gets me towels I was sweating trys to rub back and tell me to cry & scream in pillow lol. By this time I'm sure a few neighbors have been waken lol. 4:20 am.. 4 min apart IN HORRIBLE PAIN. I'm thinking shit my bf won't make it. I'm screaming loud, hitting my wall pulled a blind down lol laying on my side in bed rocking back and forth. Only position I could tolerate a lil. And with every contraction I lose my breathe and have to tighten my muscles/push. 4:32am 2 min apart. I'm dying. By now I'm sure my.complex thought I was being murdered. My daughter is there still in shock but helpful thank goodness. Told her to get dressed. She says ok but i dont want to go to school im staying with u lol. Ok girl lol. 4:44am as I'm fighting screaming thru a contraction my water POPS alllll over the place like a water balloon and I think "oh fck shes coming". I cry out my water just broke to my daughter call Nana on your phone. I call my bf muffled screamed my waterrrr just broke I'm calling 911 and going. He says something like he's 30 min away but I hung up lol & called 911 (4:45am). They answer and I yell/cry "shes coming!!"she said who's coming??! I said the babyyy, she said on youre pregnant. Etc she stays on phone saying breathe, get in middle of bed all that good stuff. I hear so many sirens THANK GOD. 4:51am about 8 paramedics appear in my room like angels lol. I hang up w/ 911. They ask questions idk I keep saying I gotta push. They say no don't push let's sit up & get in chair so we can head to hospital. I keep screaming I can't move I gotta push. They say nooo. I say yesss lol. I say I can't breathe. They give me oxygen. I say imma push I feel her coming down!...one paramedic was like "Amber don't.... Oh ummm is that hair?! OK she's gotta push get towels get towels. My daughter gives them towels and goes talk to officers in living room. 1 push I can feel 'ring of fire' and head out. I can breathe a lil better. 2nd push. Still in. 3rd hard push I feel her body slid out and pain subside. SHE'S HERE... 5:02 AM born on Mommy's bed.
Yay for migraines I have them almost everyday, sometimes with nose bleeds sometimes not. Today my nose bleed was so bad it was pouring out of my nose and I couldn’t breathe and was choking on the blood going down my throat. This is after it calmed down.🙃
