I'm starting to get depressed I have 13 days till she's here but I'm starting to hate life all over…

I'm starting to get depressed I have 13 days till she's here but I'm starting to hate life all over again I just wish this pregnacy was over already I'm tired of being lied too by my bd tired of being let down by my family I keep telling myself I been on my own since I was 17 i can do this but this being a 1st time mom I don't know anymore Lord I'm tired but don't want to give up