9/19

Went to see what our little one would be, my son or my daughter..

Instead. .

The news we got was much different.

Baby did not have a heart beat.

And My body was not rejecting him or her.

So we started the process...

I inserted 4 pills into my vagina as instructed and my nightmare turned terror within minutes.

My body went into septic shock and I had uncontrollable shakes, fever and vomiting.

Went to ER where I lost a lot of blood. But still no baby...

Transferred by ambulance to another hospital 2 hours away from home, where they had no choice but remove baby in ER with nothing but a light and my pain and grieving. Thankfully my husband was beside me!

I am FINALLY home. And alive, blood pressure wS 80/40 and my hemoglobin was crawling :(

But I am healing.

I'm grieving and I feel like I am dying inside.

Explaining to my daughter she will not have a brother or sister alive, has been hard.

😭 I wish I could put my heart in a jar.

Baby is being cremated. Spread at South mountain.

😟 prayers for healing please!