If you can love the wrong person that hard imagine how much you can love the right one. I said the same thing after my divorce and now I’m with someone who changed my mind completely 10 years later. Keep your guard up though and make sure you handle yourself and kids first but don’t deny a good man coming into your life because believe it or not there’s a small fee left and you deserve love and happiness. For now just focus all that on yourself and your kids though 😊