Random thoughts but idk why a very small part of me wants another baby. I have 2 girls and i want a…

Random thoughts but idk why a very small part of me wants another baby. I have 2 girls and i want a little boy!!! But i think that's the only reason i want another baby. And that's not enough for me. I wanna do the whole gender reveal thing and be pregnant i miss being pregnant but its what comes after the baby that worries me too. The no help. The no family to help. The me doing most of everything and me having no life. The weight gain. The stress about maybe having PPD. It just seems like i would be adding more stress on myself. And why do that when im already overwhelmed.