I love my daughter with every inch of me but I also envy every woman that is living the early years of her life with no kids 😢 It just gets so hard especially when you’re on your own. I have two jobs and still don’t feel like I’m doing enough. I don’t get breaks because after work I’m at another job and after that I have Niya . Sometimes I want to go back and change my decisions not because I don’t want my daughter but because I feel I am failing at being a mother and as a person in general. I just wish I could be in a better situation with her, she deserves soooo much better than this! As time goes on I feel more and more horrible like I’m doing so much and it’s not making a difference at all!!!!!!! 😢😭💔