I lost baby yesterday. Although I knew it was coming, it hurts so bad. My story might be triggering.

I lost baby yesterday. Although I knew it was coming, it hurts so bad. My story might be triggering.

I started spotting 3 days ago and went to the ER because I had already been experiencing some weird pains. 2 nights ago I started to bleed bright red and by 10 am yesterday I felt like I was in full blown labor again. Around 1 pm I was passing large clots and heavy blood and I knew. I had already had an appointment at 2:30, obviously ultrasound showed no baby or sac (previous ultrasound showed a sac). My hcg had already dropped by 500. Yesterday was probably one of the most emotionally painful days I’ve ever had. My doctor examined me, I was still bleeding heavily and my cervix was still slightly dilated. The ultrasound did also show that I have polycystic ovaries but couldn’t diagnose PCOS definitively.

8 months of trying for 6 wonderful weeks of pregnancy. All I can do right now is allow my body to heal and hold my little girl a little tighter.

💖7.28.18 - 9.10.18💙