Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

This is too hard.....

The lost of my Ellie.

Being kicked out of my exes

Being a single mom to 2 kids

No job

No car

Soon to be homeless

Nobody to help me

Mental and physical health issues

I'm just ready to end it all. The pain is too much. I'm starting to have panic attacks everyday. Especially when my kids are sleeping or more so when I'm by myself.

I'm so upset my husband just informed me, that my 16 yr. Old daughter told him while I was gone that I was a bad Mom with too many kids, that I was dumb because I dropped out of school, that she wanted to part in meeting her new sister in December. I'm so broken and don't know what to do!

I'm 4 cm so their keeping me. Like my mom said lol

My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤️