OK I know this may be touchy subject however.... After having 3 kids I was pretty sure I was done…

OK I know this may be touchy subject however....

After having 3 kids I was pretty sure I was done with having babies. There was talk of it there after but once my youngest son hit about 3 we kinda decided not to.

Then after all of us getting in car accident the beginning of this year....husband springs on me wanting another. We tried for a few months then went back to original decision... No more.

Well he uses the pull out method... And I can't take birth control due to my vascular migraines.... I've tried they sent me into seizures.

Well spring forward about 3 -4 mos later and here I am 2 1\2 months pregnant.

At first I was scared, appalled at the thought of pregnancy, and so unsure of another child. Then after seeing ultrasounds, heart switched to oh my sweet baby.

However with every argument my husband and I have it makes me so unsure of another baby. So my mind goes back to maybe we shouldn't have went thru with this. And the last thing I want is any of my children to feel unwanted. So that is by far not what I want this baby to think after he or she is born.... I guess my question is any other moms of multiple children having these feels with being pregnant again. Please tell me I'm not alone cuz it's making me feel like such a horrible person.