I had my first so early it's just so weird to me to have carried this baby for so long. I am…

I had my first so early it's just so weird to me to have carried this baby for so long. I am thankful but just saying it's strange... 38wks tomorrow. Looks like we will be going to 39wks. But I am in the hospital for monitoring a few hours, as I had a pretty bad panic attack and my blood pressure got very high. My doctor was gonna give me an ambien and send me home but I know I won't be able to sleep there and I got really upset. Now they are giving it to me and letting me rest here and monitor. If blood pressure goes back normal they will send me home, if not baby will be here in the morning. I am just trying to be calm and happy if I can actually SLEEEEEEP.