I’m starting to realize I’ve wanted nothing but a family with my spouse, but I’m really starting to…
I’m starting to realize I’ve wanted nothing but a family with my spouse, but I’m really starting to realize he’s never gonna be honest, loyal, and behave like a actual bf.
I’ve polluted my head of illusion I’m still waiting for. He gives me alil bit after we fight n still fight me on stuff.. says he won’t lie anymore then I find out he’s still lying abt stuff..
I’m really sticking my head in a hole here
Even worse I have nobody here it’s his family babying him and taking his side.. he twists everything on me.. I hate how much I love this dude.. and the what if’s of him changing on his own or for me kills me..
I feel alone
Honeymoonblessing ·
The question is who do you love more him, or yourself? Answer honestly and then take it from there.
Jenny·
@honeymoonblessing, kinda left me sitting here wondering now even more... I know I should love myself n I do but I love him n my son more then anything.. is it wrong.. my child does come first and either way im not gonna let him teach him this behavior is ok. The only wrong is his actions n me being tired feeling way less to him compared to everything else. He needs to grow up and I just don’t know if I can still be standing by his side by the time that happens and if it even does. But I’m trying still..
I want him to show me more n that he cares..
he doesn’t even understand alil argument isn’t that bad how u figure n work shit out. He’s gotta make it into drama and run away for days. I feel like I can’t tlk to him and when I tell him that he just says it’s always a argument. And the if I tlk to anyone else Abt how I feel abt it I’m being sneaky and god knows what I’m doing talking to them smh 🤦♀️
Honeymoonblessing ·
Unless he's willing to meet you half way. There's not much you can do. You can only stress the things that are in your control and you can actual do something about.