I don't like sharing this stuff but it's real and it happening and it's bothering me. Today while on…
I don't like sharing this stuff but it's real and it happening and it's bothering me.
Today while on the laptop for school I discovered my s/o has an active tagged and gave his phone number to a woman on there one month ago. Granted this was during one of our many spats and I was not at home.
I have been FAR from perfect in this relationship but I've owned that. He constantly throw the past in my face and today I find out he's got skeletons of his own.
I'm angry because I've had him on this pedestal, thinking I'm so lucky, etc, etc. Now I'm questioning everything. He does let me use his phone and for the most part he's predictable BUT, I've put him through a lot. This pregnancy has been rough on him, he's having acceptance issues. He no longer initiates sex but will do it if I ask.
I feel like I should let this one go but I don't want to. I confronted him by messenger and just said that I saw it. He's been acting soo guilty all night. I haven't brought it up, haven't yelled or cried, I haven't said a word since the text. I guess I'm just venting. I'm not going to leave him. I'm mostly just bc he always acts like he's so perfect in this relationship.
Ehenzon·
Мама двоих (младенец)
So I had something similar happen with dh and I, when we were kids. And of course I didn’t leave him since it was during a break up too but it did hurt a whole lot. It’s best to talk about it and let it all out because if you keep it in, it’ll creep up a lot and you don’t want to be bitter about it.
Melissa ·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (19 нед.)
@ehenzon Thanks for that. That is helpful. None of what's happening is an excuse to run back to myold ways, or to have an unforgiving heart or stew in resentment.
One way or the other everything God will use this for ultimate purpose. To be honest, it hurts bad but I won't allow it to steal my joy.
I very much appreciate the kind words and support. I think I'm going to speak to our pastor about some counseling for our family.