I'm seeing a social worker after I’ve had some issues with my OH. He still doesn’t know about it and…

I'm seeing a social worker after I’ve had some issues with my OH. He still doesn’t know about it and it feels awful, I keep thinking about it every day. How do I expect to have a trusted relationship when I'm the one who's doing things behind his back? But at the same time, I don’t know what’s his reaction going to be and I’m trying not to think about it, makes me so anxious. Although things are really improving now between us I can see that the social worker doesn’t believe me and just keep saying ‘I don’t want to affect your relationship in a negative way... BUT...’ like she’s saying it’s best if I leave him even though I’m happy now and things are improving and I feel safe. This drains me so much and I don’t know what to do. 😭🤷🏼‍♀️