I am finding it harder and harder to fall asleep. I work a weekend and night shift job and I'm a full time mother and a full time loving wife but for the life of me I can be exhausted all day long and still not get barely any sleep.
What is wrong with me. Not to mention my son is turning 2 in the morning and I am really wanting another one soon but i also want to loose weight before i even get pregnant again and we cant even afford another baby either and I just feel all mixed up like I'm not sure what emotions are the right ones.
Should I be sad or happy about my son turning 2 or both
Should I want another baby or is it not right for me and I just want one cause "baby fever".
Plus, I'm the one making money with a little help from my husband but we still cant pay rent or bills or even have enough money for groceries. I cant get WIC or Food stamps cause I cant ever find enough time to get all that paperwork done. And it kills me not to be able to support my family..and I hate having to ask other family for help with money every time I blink.
I just dont know anymore. I want to be optimistic but i cant find any way how to.
I feel like I'm fat, lazy, and no good to anyone anymore...