Soooo today went from pretty good to kind of awful. I just looked at the date... My baby sister…

Soooo today went from pretty good to kind of awful. I just looked at the date... My baby sister turns 8 tomorrow. The end of year 7 and all of age 8 was some of the hardest in my life. I developed my self esteem issues bad, my bio dad was cut from my life, I started having my seizures and I started puberty that year... by age 9 I was a 32B. I got so much that year about gaining weight and a broken family.. it sucked. I know she may not have all the same issues but I could not imagine her going through any more pain this year, from the middle of August to December last year. she already had our great grandpa die which was the first death she really experienced, her dog was taken away, I moved and everyone was telling her I didn't care about her anymore and that's why I left. I want her to know I'm still always there for her, no matter what happens, she's still my first princess. I basically raised that girl as my stepdad worked, came home, watched tv or played video games and was only really involved when one of us was into sports. My mother was always running around, going out with friends or yelling at me to take care of the little ones. She was my first.. and I'm not even going to be around tomorrow. I have no contact as my mother cut me completely off because she doesn't support my choices and says I've been stupid and broke the family. I can't contact her in any way. I'm so heartbroken right now. She's been looking forward to this birthday since she was 6, I'm not really sure why but it was always so sweet. The last thing we got to do together was we dressed up really pretty in dresses and shoes and did our hair up. We went out to dinner at a really nice place she had been begging to go, we both ended up with serious tummy aches from sharing a HUGE icecream/milkshake cookie monster dessert. We went back had a movie and she stayed the night with me where I had currently been... it was so great..