I’m being so indecisive with my own feelings. My sister got engaged and she’s super excited. I’m crazy happy for her since her last engagement was fake and forced. But last time she asked me straight away if I’d be her maid of honor and at the time I was super broke and lived states away (Ohio to Arizona) so I told her I would love to be her maid of honor but I couldn’t in fear of failing her because I’m not there and in fear of missing the wedding. And now I’m feeling like she’s gunna choose someone else because of that only this time I’ll be a days drive away and I have more money. I’m not going to express this to her because I want her to choose the people she wants. I just need to get it off my chest because I’m kinda hurt but I also understand and would never ruin her day over something so minor. But I can’t help but feel jealous of all the other possible people she’d choose. 💔