So my whole life I never ever wanted kids. It wasnt for me. I met my husband 4 years ago and changed…

So my whole life I never ever wanted kids. It wasnt for me. I met my husband 4 years ago and changed my mind on having kids. We tried for 3 years and finding out I didn't ovulate, i had irregular periods, we were on fertility drugs and then got pregnant 3 times and lost all 3. 1 of which was an ectopic and I lost my right fallopian tube. I then gave up and quit all my fertility stuff and 3 weeks later along came my baby girl. I then decided I'm 29 and have a 6 month old daughter and an 8 year old step son. My daughter was very very hard in the beginning and made me decide that's it I don't want any more kids. I made an app to get a tubal then My husband volunteered to get a vasectomy. His vasectomy is in 11 days and I just cancelled his appointment!!! I think now all of a sudden I want 1 more! Where did this come from???? And why??? Any other mommas feel this?