Found out my baby had no heart beat on the 19th. Had D&C yesterday. My husband showed up but found comfort in his girlfriend afterwards. I feel every thing. Vicious anger to rehabilitating pain. I'm trying to keep busy but all I feel is Anger. No sadness, Just Anger and a appetite for risky behaviors. My older babies are away in Jamaica away from this toxic air. Thank God. But.... I don't know what to do. Drinking doesn't make it better. It takes the edge off but..... Nothing makes sense......