Woke up from having a dream that scared me so much that i almost started crying when i woke up, woke…

Woke up from having a dream that scared me so much that i almost started crying when i woke up, woke up hubby he calmed me down and toled me to breath slow and deep and held my hand. 😭😭 now im up to go potty and feeling super emotional.

For over a week I've been really nervous and sad about labor. I don't know how I'm going to cope with out my mom being here. 😭 shes helped me threw everything in life. My next best friend who's also helped me threw the most scariest times of my life has been my sister. Threw all the hospitalizations due to having to be put in the mental ward (bipolar). Now my husband wants to be the only one in the delivery room when I give birth to our daughter. I also understand that the hospital may only allow one person (hubby) to be in delivery room. Which is understandable and if so it differently will be my husband! But if they allow two people. It will be much harder to respect my husband's wishes because I'm the one pushing out a baby out of my body for the first time in my life and have very bad anxiety disorders. I love my husband with all my heart. Im praying that I can completely rely on him during Labor. I've never been so close to a man in my life or trusted a man as much as my husband ( one huge reason I married him, no other man has been more trustworthy and true in my life). So I'm trying to put all my trust and comfort in him and God when in the Labor and deilvery room. (Just needed to vent and talk about this. Since my mom has passed things have been much different and difficult to cope with. I do have a feeling this experience will definitely bring my husband and I much closer together!💜💗💞