I try my best to the be the best mom I can be. It’s fuckin hard being a preemie mom!!!! Especially dealing with his stupid ass sperm donor that don’t do a fuckin thing for him! But wants to take him to his house to impress his bitches and pretend like he’s the best damn dad in the world! I get up every night with him! I lose sleep! I make sure he has every fuckin thing he needs!!! I’ve asked him to watch him so I can go to the doctor and other important shit and he doesn’t! I ask him to buy him bottles or other little stuff and he doesn’t!!! I tell him about every single one of his appointments! What time and where! Even offer to pick him up and he just doesn’t go!!! And ignores me when I text him and ask if he’s coming! I ask him every day if he’s coming to see little man and he pops off with I want to take him to my house. Fuck no!!! I’m so sick of this shit! All I keep thinking about is packing our shit up and leaving! Just leaving every damn thing behind. Starting over. I’m fucking breaking! I want my son to have the best and his sperm donor is the worse. I don’t have proof that he’s unfit or I would just file for soul custody. I don’t know how much longer I can put up with everything. It’s to damn much. I just need a break. From everything and everyone.