Why did I have to be the 20% that had to lose their child? I'm so heartbroken and alone. My husbands…
Why did I have to be the 20% that had to lose their child? I'm so heartbroken and alone. My husbands at work and I just sit here thinking and missing that little bean that I was carrying. I feel like I can't go on anything(social media) because all I see are friends with their healthy 2nd and 3rd pregnancies all happy and making plans kills me. I would never ever wish anything bad on them and they should be happy and enjoy this time but I can't help but think. Why me? What did I do to deserve losing something so precious to me? What did I do to deserve this pain and emptiness? I know time will make it easier but its a lot harder going through something so alone I have no family or friends near me. My husband was great the first few days but now he is just back to pushing me away emotionally. My son is literally the only little ray of sunshine I have right now and I hate when the grief overwhelms me.
🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦Shandi🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦·
Мама троих детей
I'm so sorry my heart breaks for you sending you all my love support 💔💖
Letty ·
I wish we were close.. but I'm here I to lost a little bean yet I could never talk about it i feel no one cares
Mother Of Him&Her·
I'm sorry you're feeling this way buddy. I can't imagine what you must be going through mentally but I'm sending nothing but positive vibes to you. I'm here for you!
Aylenrose·
@ironbutterfly thank you I need it
Aylenrose·
@mrs.letty.luna it's more so that they don't know what to say so even talking to them leaves you feeling empty. Any of the people "friends" that try to reach out will not get it and so you can just tell they don't want to keep a conversation going after a couple minutes. I'm so sorry you lost one to its so so hard.
Aylenrose·
@wolfnurturer thanks I definitely need the positivity right now. I'm in a dark place and I want to get out of it. I just need something good to happen to pull me out of this funk.
🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦Shandi🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦·
Мама троих детей
@aylenrose I'm always here if you need support 💖
Azianeshay·
@aylenrose, I know exactly how you feel I miss my time being pregnant too the night I started planning planning planning I lost my baby... if you need someone to talk to you can message me
Mother Of Him&Her·
@aylenrose no problem, have you thought about maybe going to spend time with your mom? Also maybe doing some crafts or photos?
Aylenrose·
@wolfnurturer I'm not ready to face everyone and their pity stares or talk about it with family. Plus I was just there before I lost the baby. I have no motivation for anything else and no clients at the moment.
Aylenrose·
@azianeshay yup same we were just going over names and my husband was so excited he bought some onesies for a girl because he was so certain it was a girl. Then we lost the baby and he had to take the onesies back. Its so heart breaking. I'm so sorry for your loss to.
Mother Of Him&Her·
@aylenrose I get that completely but it could be nice to talk to them you know, instead of just kind of being "alone". Maybe going out with them and your son. Just doing some family things to get out for a little. Also very key to try at least to be open with your husband and tell him how he's making you feel lately. You don't and shouldn't have to feel like you're going through this alone. I know guys don't fully understand the process a woman goes through but being there for the woman is very important to me.
Celia C·
I’m sorry to hear that. If you want to talk I’ll be here with open ears.