So I had a miscarriage yesterday at 7 weeks and 1 day. I was in total shock went because I was…

So I had a miscarriage yesterday at 7 weeks and 1 day. I was in total shock went because I was spotting on Friday to the emergency room. They said the baby was fine which was a lie. Then went yesterday because I was bleeding so much pain with cramps. I went to the emergency again then the doctor said did they tell you the day before you came about the ultrasound. I said yes everything was fine. The doctor said no they didn’t hear the babies heartbeat. This is a sign of miscarriage. So the baby had no chance of making it. Here I am in pain and my husband is so sad was crying yesterday. This would have been my 3rd and last kid. I have all these mix feelings don’t know how to feel. I feel like I want to operate myself and never have a kid again. But I think it is out of hurt and pain i am talking out of. My sister says i am grieving in my own way. Don’t know what to feel I been crying on and off😢 .